This is a strange moment in my life. After waiting for this for so long and now being so close to that moment, I find that I have all these little fears that I had been ignoring for all these months. The months have definitely flown by. There was a moment, at the beginning, that I really believed it would seem like forever, but now, I feel it's too soon, there's too much to still do. And yet, I cannot wait to meet this little person that has been living inside me for so long (my little dinosaur or my little vampire). The reason for my life has changed and now I know I owe it to him and to myself to make all the right decisions from now on. I understand, and he's not even here, the fears that have driven my mother's decisions, comments, observations all these years (no matter how annoying I found many of them). Now, I know that all my decisions, comments, observations, the way I look at life itself, will be completely different. Maybe they already are. I once thought parenthood couldn't really change you, but now I feel so different.
